Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live

Jan. 8th, 2011

First week of school done and I'm exhausted!! Honestly, I remember past years being much easier the first week than this. If anyone needs me I'm going to be sleeping on my desk, the one of which my face is about an inch from right now.

Anyone want to go ice skating tomorrow?

[Private]
I feel like my heart is exploding... perhaps imploding would be a better word.

It hurts, kinda?

The world isn't quite what I thought it'd be, things are different now..
[/Private]

[Private to Tabbey]

Hey, can we talk?

[/Private to Tabbey]

Tags: abbey gill

Jan. 2nd, 2011

Private to self

I can't believe it's my last year here and it starts tomorrow. What happens after Idris? Is it so bad that I'm completely scared out of my mind. I learned a lot about how people aren't all they seem to be over break. Nor are they as inclined to do good as I thought. I was naive before.

And things about Abbey... I don't even know where to start with that.

Is fhearr fheuchainn na bhith san duil, Tada gan iarracht, Cha d'dhùin doras nach d'fhosgail doras.

/Private to self

Who's ready for tomorrow?? :D

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Dec. 7th, 2010

From: soriley@idris.edu
To: agill@idris.edu
Date: Dec 8th, 2:14AM
Subject: Hi

~~Hey T..Abbey~~

~~Hi, I'm glad to see you around school.. If you couldn't tell, I can't sleep..~~

I've ~~really missed you~~ been glad to see you around. I hope everything is well, ~~we stopped talking over break.. and I was worried~~ we seemed to have lost contact over break and I just wanted to know everything was alright.

~~Could we talk sometime? Just us?~~

...Anyways, maybe we'll catch up soon?

Sam

Tags: !email, abbey gill

Home

Odd how this place has a better sense of home than Ireland does. I'm so glad to be back.

Mar. 16th, 2010

~~I know this is very unlike me but does anyone~~
Soooooo....
~~If anyone~~

Does anyone want to go to Zouk! after classes for St. Patrick's? I'll tell you all about my home if you want a lesson. Or we could just drink to our hearts content.

~~Good gods. EPIC PANTIE RAID. I know this isn't really like me either, but.. fantastic.~~

BY THE WAY!

Has.. anyone seen my green, shamrock covered pair of panties. Someone seems to have taken them. I wanted to wear them on St. Patrick's. Come on guys...

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Mar. 9th, 2010

Yeah..no

I don't think I'll be going to the Spring Fling. I don't see anything out of it but a headache and drama. So I'm going to be staying in my room and reading/studying. Pop by if you want to, it's not like anyone else lives here. Slán.

Feb. 27th, 2010

[Private Abbey]
Is there some time I could see your happy face? If you're busy and things I understand though.
[/Private]

Things are weird at school... with James and ghosts, people fighting, previous love potions and snowstorms. I'm not sure what to think about it. I hope a new room-mate comes soon, I hope she's nice. I feel like the only thing keeping me occupied are my books besides so much school work. Things are heavy this year. My bed is a disaster of papers and books. I don't even bother to clean it anymore, which is unlike me, I just fall asleep with everything on it with me.

[Private to Rocky]
Thank you so much for letting me spend time with you and taking me out to the Art Lab. You're an amazing friend, truly. I couldn't help but feeling so sad, but I'm glad I have you to pick me up when I'm down. Thank you.
[/Private]

Feb. 19th, 2010

[Private]
It's so quiet and empty. I miss her. What do I do now? I don't have someone to cuddle and talk about life with.. I don't get to see her bouncy happy face. I feel alone and it hurts. I'm glad she's happy, I really really am. I hope things work out at home. She deserves that. Minnie. I miss her. I'm having a hard time leaving my room, but the more I'm here the more I hate it. I don't really want to see anyone, yet I hate being here where there's no one. She's gone. Classes are passing and I don't hear anything anymore. It's all fuzzy. I'm having to read the chapters and teach myself when I can actually focus for a bit. Music used to make things better but it's making it harder so I sit in silence. It was never quiet with Minnie around. Of course, her happiness is what matters. I don't blame her for going. I hope it all works for her.
[/Private]

It's empty and quiet in my room now. I don't like it. I don't like being alone.

[Private to James]
I think.. a few things about.. what it feels like when your roommate leaves..
I didn't
I wasn't able
It's hard to see what someone feels when you can't feel it yourself. You just can make a guess and hope it gets better.
I know you don't like me, but I want you to know I do care about you and I've always hoped things got better instead of worse. I'd try to fix it but I know I can't...

I know what it feels like now James.
I understand at least... a little part.
It hurts so much.
I'm sorry.

Feb. 13th, 2010

It's the day before Valentine's and I think I'm more nervous than I've ever been before...

Feb. 7th, 2010

Question Of The Day

What have you done that you previously didn't think you could do? ~~I wonder if anyone will answer.~~

Feb. 5th, 2010

I'm glad the week is over, it seemed longer than usual. A lot longer. Is anyone doing anything exciting this weekend? Is it too much of a bother if I ask to hang around? Fun and exciting ~~something educational?~~ I could totally be up for.

Jan. 27th, 2010

The itching is actually starting to get to me...

I don't know about anyone else but I tend to scratch when I ITCH.

So now that I have itches, scratches, and a bit of blood here and there, I'm starting to get a little aggrivated.

It'd be nice to know who or maybe in better terms, what, did this so I can growl at them a bit. It's hard to concentrate on a book when all you can think about is how your body itches to no end. So, thanks for that, whoever you are. ~~Bet it's a Rakiah.~~

Jan. 19th, 2010

I think I know what's going on but that doesn't make it easy?
Classes are hard to pay attention in, yet I'm loving having all my books again.
Mmmmm, blah?
That's all I got today. If you need me, my face will probably be found stuffed in a book somewhere. Slán.

~~Abbey?~~

Jan. 12th, 2010

I believe I spent the whole of today after classes in the library, I think I might be there most of Thursday too. I’m really not that great at literature, as much as I try~~/pretend~~. So I stay in the library, even if I don’t have homework. Many people would believe that weird, but the more I think about it, the more I love it. Even when I don’t have homework, being in the library tends to make me feel great. Is that weird? ~~Probably, yes. Yes.~~ It’s as if, while I wander the shelves, my fingers trail upon a path of bindings. All of which, a new title, something new to learn, something to grow by, and that makes my heart smile just a little. Maybe I’m losing my mind? ~~Probably…Yes…~~ Anyways, I think maybe I’ve spent too much time in the library. Also, we have Mathey Blitzball practice tomorrow and a game on the 22nd. It’s the beginning again, but not at all. I need to not get caught up in work yet. As must as I love the library, I need out this weekend. I need someone ~~Abbey~~ to hang out with for a while. As much as I love reading and writing, I also like to play and laugh. Something fun.

Anyone doing anything exciting?

[Private to Abbey]
Are you busy this weekend? ~~I could use some me and you time?~~ I think my eyes need rest from reading and my legs are itching to run for a while. I'm honestly up for anything, this weekend maybe? If you're busy, I totally understand.
[/Private]

Jan. 10th, 2010

[Private to Jannika]

I know you'll be really busy, but try to think about yourself and take some time for you today. You need it. I'm sorry, for alas, I'm completely and utterly flat broke, or I'd have bought you an extravagant present. Though! I do have a lion hug and a hand crocheted brown beanie here if you want them.. Good luck at Boxing. I’ll be thinking of you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

[/Private]

Jan. 7th, 2010

Ice Cream, Misea?

[Private to Misae]

I realize it's a bit short notice but would you come to the Ice Cream Party tomorrow? You don't have to if you don't want, I just thought that maybe you'd enjoy it. School is kicking back up again, but take one last break before it begins fully? It'll be lots of fun! Plleeasseee. :) We have plenty of time to be studious. MIsaeee!

[/Private to Misae]

Jan. 6th, 2010

Icecream + Abbey

[Private]
Abbey mentioned something about an ice cream party on the 8th over at Rakiah. I'd really like to go and see her. ~~Maybe more.~~ ~~So cute.~~

I'm so glad we have holiday, the begining of school picking up again is just a pain getting back into the swing. New Years wasn't anything special, though I'm always glad to have something to look forward to. I saw so many people and that made me very happy. Can't wait to see what's going to come with the 2nd half of school. Same as before my family didn't much talk to me so I went out like usual. Beautiful places to be at and learn about.
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[Private to tabbey]
What should I wear Friday?
[/Private]

Icecream + Abbey = Amazing ~~I hope!~~

Happy Begining to a New Year everyone!

Jan. 5th, 2010

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